Mom and her Terrible, Horrible, Wonderfully Good Day!....and My Thoughts on Procrastination

For all intents and purposes today was not a really good day.  I spent a great deal of my day paying bills (that’s always fun!J) and running around from store to store picking up groceries and other necessary items to get us through the next couple of weeks.  I’m not sure what was wrong with me, I just wasn’t myself.  Could it be the hundreds of dollars spent making car and utility payments today?  Or was it simply that fact that for the past couple of days I have been stressing out about several homework assignments that I have due at the end of the week.  I have been avoiding them like the plague; making excuse after excuse as to why I haven’t had time to finish them.  Who am I kidding?  I’ve just been absolutely exhausted and have been doing everything but trying to fulfill my academic responsibilities.  Last night I started to study but I ended up watching several episodes of Law & Order Special Victims Unit and them passing out on the couch.  Earlier that day when I could have been working on my papers I ended up spending time with a friend that I haven’t seen in a few weeks.  It’s funny because I spend a great deal of time and effort telling my children that procrastination is not good, but this week I’ve waited until the last minute to do all of my assignments.  I feel like such a hypocrite.  Maybe the kids should have a talk with me about my procrastination. 

They seem to be on task, often telling me at the beginning of the day what’s on their agendas.  Although, I usually go over their lesson plans the night prior, I always get a kick out of them knowing exactly what they need to work on before I open my mouth.  Anyway, I digress.  I need to get my work done and have absolutely no desire to do it.  I’ve been doing relatively well all semester, and now I’m at the home stretch and my enthusiasm and motivation have completely gone out the window.  This is a big week for me.  I have an assignment due in Graphic design worth 650 points and another assignment worth 15% of my grade.  Although I have started my graphic design assignment, I have not begun writing the other one.  To be honest I should probably not be posting right now, this is just another pathetic attempt to avoid the inevitable.  But I promised myself that I would begin my paper as soon as I finish my blog.

After thinking about my wretched behavior today, I realize that I have no excuse for not doing what I have to do.  They do.  All in the interest of making my husband and I proud.  It is my duty to set a good example for my children.  I can only say that it is not I who have set a good example for them this week.  It is they who have set a good example for me.  I took the picture above and below of my beloved Jules and Samsara sitting at their desks doing their schoolwork.  I can’t explain the emotions that welled up in me when I snapped these photo’s, I can only say that I couldn’t be prouder.  They were on task.  I think that we can all take a lesson from our children at times (who am I kidding most of the time).  They possess a wisdom far greater than we realize.  I’m just happy that I am fortunate enough to witness that ethereal intelligence.  As for me, I have a paper to write and a project to complete, so I'll be signing off now.  Goodnight.